Saturday the 5th of March 2016
I'm ill. My SO is ill too. We've been ill for about a week but due to my various duties, I decided not to deal with it. Last night however, I developed a fever, my SO cancelled my hair appointment and I got into bed. My chest seared with pain, my head felt heavy and I coughed so hard it hurt. Have you ever tried to blow up a balloon with a hole in it? That's what it felt like, except my lungs were the balloons. I just couldn't fill them up, it was as though there was a hole in my neck seeping out air.
I'm writing this from the bed fort I've made on the sofa, where I've been all day and although I woke up with the intention of going to work, it would've been a foolish mistake. I ignored flu symptoms last year and ended up completely loosing my voice, twice. I haven't tidied my desk for a while so my laptop is beside me on the coffee table. The paper work has piled up as I've been doing a lot of cover lessons recently. I like the students but it's not easy, I wanted this year to be the year I took control of my routine, of myself and my own life but instead I've had to pick up the pieces of other people's shunned responsibilities. I won't be teaching after the summer holidays and instead I have decided to dedicate myself to the one thing I've ever actually been consistently interested in since leaving Taiwan.
I see a psychiatrist every week and I am still coming to terms with my ability to understand and interact with others appropriately, to approach topics of interests in a calm rather than overbearing manner as well as several other personality traits (or quirks) I happen to possess. I process information differently to other people and I need to learn to accept that. I recently stepped out of my comfort zone and took on an opportunity I have (without exaggeration) been dreaming of since high school. As some of you might know, last year, I successfully completed a digital marketing course with Google's Squared Online. I had considered applying for things here or there but it didn't seem like the right moment. Until, I saw a job offer on a Facebook group called Warsaw Startup Jobs, it was posted on the 10th of February and I got in touch with them on the 12th.
I started working on gaining the company followers as soon as we had arranged to meet. I wanted real data based evidence to show what I could do. I wanted there to be a noticeable difference in their digital presence, in their analytics, from the moment they met me. They sent me the brief for an article, which they had received, read and made notes on by the 15th. We worked on it together via Google Docs. I made several relevant changes and realised that during this process, it didn't feel like I was working. It felt as though I was simply doing what I loved to do, writing comes naturally to me and this was writing about something I was genuinely interested in, with people who truly seemed to have drive and vision! Here is the first article we published.
Sunday the 6th of March 2016
This blog post has taken me almost a whole weekend to type up. Half today, half yesterday. I really don't like having flu, it makes me so unproductive. My temperature has come down but the strange cough remains. Today is Mother's Day in the UK, so Happy Mother's Day to my mum and to every other mum I know. I'm cold, I've done two loads of laundry and the weather has been grey for several weeks now. I recently bought tickets for Pyrkon. None of this is relevant.
I visited the office on a Wednesday and I had started and signed my contract (with App'n'roll) by the Monday. I now have two jobs and I'm still studying towards my PhD. Since starting on this new adventure, I feel as though I've really grown as a person, I took a chance and I succeeded. Rather than my usual 'I'm worried, I can't do it', I thought 'I'm good enough, I should try' and it worked. Since that point I've written two more articles, here's one (The Startup Studio Model: The Team) and here's another (How to Prevent Burnout). Both of which have received some great feedback, I'm so proud to be a part of this.
My short term goals mentioned in the previous post have taken a back seat in favour of long term goals and of course, being ill at the moment means it's hard to do anything. However, I feel as though next week, or perhaps the week after, I'll be back on track. I planted sunflower seeds as part of a biology lesson with a Class 5 cover group. They were so excited to see their plants growing every week. I planted some too and I have to say, sunflowers grow surprisingly fast. I always feel as though I'm over or under watering plants and I'm very conscious of that fact. Last month was busy, I tried so many new things (including trampolining), met so many new people and learnt so much.
This month, I need to take control of my health. Do multivitamins work? I've heard and read mixed reviews.